How the hell am I going to get through tomorrow? Oh, wait you will probably want a background of what is going to take place. I have had two coworkers who had babies within four days of each other. It was the fourth child for one and the first for the other. I should preface this story with this as well, I consider both of them great friends. I am significantly closer to one than the other but they are wonderful people. We are going to go see the first time mommy and by "we" I mean the fourth time mommy and myself. At first I was really excited about it but now thinking about the repercussions, I am really regretting my choice. I am going to be siting there without anything to add to the conversations. I just know it. Why oh why do I do this to myself.
I also had a grave realization today. I have been making baby gifts like crazy lately. There is a chance that I won't ever be able to make some for myself.
I know this post sucked balls but I am feeling crappy right now and nobody ever reads this anyway.
hey there,
ReplyDeleteyou don't know me, but i read your blog. i have pcos and endo and have one child from ivf. we have been going through fertility treatments to have #2 for about 1 and 1/2 years now and have not been successful. anyway, you don't have to go tomorrow. doesn't matter that you said you would. doesn't matter if she's your bff, sister, cousin whatever. i have skipped birthdays, baptisms, left vacations early, canceled playdates and avoided people altogether... because i was over "babypalooza" and this is even with having a child of my own. no one else can possibly understand your pain. they wont get it, but if they really love you they'll get over it.