This blog is intended to help me deal with the issues I am facing with IF(infertility). I release a lot of stress while writing. My hope is that others dealing with IF or trying to get pregnant will be able to read this as well and be able to relate or heck, make you feel better about yourself and your issues. Warning: This blog may contain strong language that may be not suitable for children and easily offended people. With that being said read at your own risk:) You've been warned!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Here We Go Again!

This HAS to be a record two posts with in a week?? What?!?!?! I told you I was going to get better at this. Since Saturday I have been really trying to focus on things that make me happy instead of things that bring me down. We will have our IUI #3 on Friday at 10:15. Lucky number 3??? I hope so! We will "trigger" tomorrow morning. Here is a picture of the needle and the vials....

Saturday, October 23, 2010


I know I have to be the worst blogger in the history of the world. To catch up, our second IUI was a fail, again. Everything looked great on paper. Great lining, fast response, hub's numbers were much better than last time. But in the end, it just didn't work out I guess. To make matters worse, two of my best friends have informed me that they are pregnant. God dammit. I am happy for them, really I am, but when is it ever going to be my turn???
So we are now on Cycle 17.Ughh. I am on Clomid again, a higher dose than last time. I really hate Clomid. It makes me crazy. I am bi-polar while on this medication. If this cycle doesn't work, then we are going to have to take a break from medicated cycles and go back to the old fashioned way. We are complete out of pocket with any treatments. Boo.